You are a tiny baby, but you don’t know how much you have changed my life already. I am deathly afraid that when you grow up you won’t like or respect me. Believe me I try my hardest to do right by you, I work as much as I can and when I come home and you are asleep I try and kiss your tummy and say how much I love you because I think you can still hear me. I won’t be absent like my father was, I will be here for you, I am not just saying that because that is what I am supposed to do. I have no experience with this and I am sorry that I will mess up a lot, but I will not let you down. You will be happy, no matter what it takes. I will do ANYTHING for you, your happiness and safety will always be the first and last thing i think about each day of my life. All I ask is that you are a caring person, and love those around you, like you will be loved everyday. I love you son, more than i thought I could ever love anything.